I never really enjoyed writing. There was nothing that interested me enough to actually take the time to put my thoughts onto paper until I became a mom. Becoming a mom has changed my life in so many ways. I used to thrive on talking to people about being a teacher. That was the one thing I was comfortable and familiar discussing with others. Now, I am a mom, and this was unfamiliar to me because no one knows what it takes until you are one.
Instead of spending my nights lesson planning, I spend my nights playing with my baby, Frankie. I also spend a lot of time researching everything from breastfeeding versus formula feeding to baby toys.
When I was pregnant, everyone had an opinion and gave me advice. The best advice that my husband and I received was to do what is best for you and your baby. I remember this daily as I raise my child.
When I was little, the thought of breastfeeding scared me. I never thought I would try it. When I became pregnant, the thought of breastfeeding still scared me. I took the classes through the hospital and read about it. I got my breast pump and necessary accessories. I even bought some nursing tops to prepare myself for this adventure. I thought that I would try breastfeeding because of the many advantages for both the baby and mom that come from this. I really wanted to give my child the best nutrients!
I worried and wondered if I would be able to breastfeed. I had talked to many women. Most women loved breastfeeding and the bonding that takes places between mothers and their children. Other women told me about their wonderful experiences with formula. I was grateful to hear both stories.
Well, the day came and it was time for me to breastfeed Frankie. The nurse helped me and I thought that he had latched and was able to get milk. I felt very accomplished and proud of myself. Then, the nurse told me that Frankie wasn’t latching and that the nurses would help me. I then became worried that it wasn’t going to be as easy I thought. Frankie had a really hard time latching and I spent the 5 days in the hospital crying from the pain. Once I got home, Frankie was cluster feeding and I was in tears from the pain. My milk had started to come in finally, so I decided to pump exclusively. I did this until I went to the pediatrician with Frankie. She then told me that Frankie was tongue-tied and that was the reason why Frankie had a hard time latching. My husband and I decided that it would be best for me to continue to exclusively pump. After two weeks of this, I already had a clogged milk duct. I spent most of my time researching how to fix the clogged duct and ease the pain instead of spending time with my precious newborn. I discussed switching to formula with the pediatrician, obstetrician, and my husband. After these important discussions, I decided that it would be best for my family if I switched to formula. I belong to a breastfeeding Facebook group and I see how all of these amazing women breastfeed and face the challenges that I faced daily but still somehow can continue to breastfeed. I admire these women and at one point questioned my decision. Then, I realized that I have a healthy baby and we are doing well. It is important to do what is best for you and your family. Don’t worry about what others think!